Unfortunately, stage fright and lack of practice I choked royally, my speech went too long, and there for I missed the most important business parts and primarily they heard about me and I life, but that's ok. Next time there won't be any slides, I don't fit well inside boxes, even the ones I have built for myself.
As soon as leaving that stage a mountain was lifted from my shoulders. I really put way too much energy into the whole thing and that is where I came out the real winner.
So even in "losing" I gained this website, this fun little platform for my writing muses, and the skills to edit and create powerful little videos (both fulfilling teenage dreams for my future of being a cinematographer and a writer). Through one of the people who was there that night, I will have a team of several students from Wester Washington's Business school extension in Poulsbo helping me with the nitty gritty business stuff from April till June.
Truthfully, I am overflowing with gratitude for losing. As I stepped away from that frenzy, I was able to breath again. I didn't start this business to cater to business people and bankers, yet I would love to build an abundant life from it eventually, and perhaps even financially make an impact on my community, but hours in front of a computer, and researching market trends had turned me into one stressed out and snappy momma, and I got into this so I can inoculate a better world for my daughter with her by my side.
Taking a step back this winter has been marvelous, and now with a new home space to root down for the two of us things are good, my hands are getting dirty, and things are growing again. I have found new ways to step forward with less stress, let debt, that feel good and true to my own path instead of conforming to expectations. So right now I have tiny 3' X 1.5' x 5' greenhouse chalk full of micro-greens and mushroom bags, my 6' by 8' will be getting cleaned out this week and ready for this next season, and I get to share my passion of mycology on April 28th... perfect little steps in the right direction.